Well, if a part of you is confused about yourself, a part of me is confused about mine. Lets deal with that hurtful yet soft part of mine. No this isn’t what you are thinking about! Nevermind, let me get the balls rolling.
Anxiety is for real!
I have this weird sort of anxiety which naturally revolves around the circle that I am in. Being at the radius, I have a lot of thoughts filling up my mind asking me if this circle fits my enthusiastic and weird self or if I am just thinking too much. Yeah I am talking about friends!
I don’t know whether its me or only the minded people who are disturbed yet at peacefully enjoying time at their own place. I know a lot of shits are going on but what is healing me and yet disturbing me sometimes is this one question…
Whether I am keen to spend more time at home or would I rather want it to be spent entirely with my friends?
I mean, most of you will be like ofcourse it has to be friends. Oh please Dutsking! Don’t act stupid and start acting like a scumbag who doesn’t need any friend.
Ah guys! I get it that you prefer spending time around people. What I mean is that its not always the case with me. Not really trying to be a scumbag, I like spending time with friends. However, its limited to the time my anxiety kicks in and makes me feel like going back to my room with that laptop and maybe a cup of coffee. SIP!
Oh I forgot to tell you how quarantine has this healing property. So basically, less human contact both physically and mentally will help you dodge COVID-19. With lesser human contacts as in really contacting people, I feel a bit relieved because I don’t have to spend over-thinking what the other person thinks about me. Also containing the fear of getting the virus. Phew! It basically helps me sleep well and tell me what’s better than sleeping well in this quarantine?
However, I am still figuring out if I would prefer this state of conditions even after everything becomes normal so that I can enjoy that lonely yet insightful time?
I guess the answer has to be in Affirmative!
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